My mothers journey

Today is March 1st 2010 and today is the day we find out if my mothers IBC ( Inflammatory Breast Cancer ) has spread to anywhere else in her body.

Abouth a month ago my mother confided in me that she had a funny spot on her breast. " Its not a lump " she told me its just a funny discoloration spot. " It doesnt hurt " I told her you still better get it checked out. She was having pain in her bowels also and leg pain for quite some time. When her bowel pain got to be to much my dad took her to the hospital turned out she had Diverticulitis. Its a disease of the bowels, that causes pockets to form on them. While she was there I told my brother about " the spot " He called and told her Dr. It has been a blur of a week and 1/2 since then. They did a biopsy and found it was positive for cancer. They called her a week ago Monday and told her it was IBC. IBC is very rare it only account for 1 to 2% of all breast cancers. Its also extremely aggressive. It metastisizes very quickly and easily. I have been an emotional wreck since. One day I am strong and confident that we are going to beat this and its all going to be ok, and the next week I am crying my eyes out and scared to death. I cannot imagine how my mother feels. So far shes in good spirit and strong and confident. I hope she stays this way because having a strong confident head about it is 1/2 the battle. I dont want her to give in and give up. My mother lost her mother to the battle of cancer when my mom was only in her early 30's ..Yes by rights Ive had my mother longer then that but Im not ready to let go yet. So with a strong heart and a level head I have researched this disease tirelessly. There are a few sites Id like to pass on.... BE INFORMED this cancer alot of women have no idea it exsists...It doesnt present as a lump so it can be easily misdiagnosed as an infection.. Check out the web sites I provide and I will add more as I learn on more for now please check these out do yourself a favor .... www.eraseibc.com also www.ibcresearch.org/symptoms

Call me Mrs that Adam

Saturday June 6th, I married my love. It was a simple but nice home ceremony. I have officially been married for over a week....lol. We spent that last week in Florida. If any of you ever are thinking of going to Florida in June take my advise..........DONT. Wow was it HOT. Upper 90's with 75% humidity which leaves it feeling like its anywhere from 100 to about 105. Dont get me wrong I had a blast. The beach was awesome and we did 4 theme parks, Animal Kingdon, Magic Kingdom, Epcot and Hollywood Studios. We went downtown Disney and went to see the Cirque Du Soleil. If you ever get the chance to see that GOOOOOOOO. It was awesome. We went to a dinner theater Medieval Times. That was a trip. We checked out Ripleys beleive it or not. That was cool. All in all we had a great time minus the heat. It sure was good to come home though. Today was Kendras baby shower which was very nice. She got some great things from all of my great family and friends. Thanks to everyone. Now hopefully we can get back to normal

One down one to go

Well my little girl has graduated. Its a done deal. Last night was graduation and today was her open house. It all went real well and we didnt run out of food or drinks. Everything turned out good and we had great company there for her open house. It wasnt real big but thats ok we wanted fairly small. I have one stress behind me now one more to go and then I can truly relax!!!

Holy Cow

Ok so I have been so very very busy and its been forever since I have posted sheeeeeeeeesh. Well we are sitting at 8 days till the big wedding. Yes 8 days crazy huh? Where has the time gone. Im going insane with all these final last minute details. Ill be glad when it all comes together. This Friday Kendra graduates and Saturday is her open house. I have so much to do. I just hope I dont forget something along the way

Kendra had her ultrasound and I am having a Granddaughter YEAHHHH.....a baby girl. Ive already bought up a bunch of stuff for her. Baby shower coming up on the 16th of June. Which we are having at my house so Ive come to the conclusion that.....

Truely I lead a mad mad mad life

Stupid Virus inveters

Ok so I know Im not completely computer illeterate but come on!! I got a message from my Norton Antivirus program at about 9:45 last night telling me that I had a trojan on my computer. Some funky thing named Trojan Bris vA.....( who names these things? )Apparantly it came from a media file, ( I blame Adam and his music and movie obscession ) Anyway I did a removal on my Norton and to my dismay Norton was unable to remove the virus. Apparantly I needed to download a removal tool, and do it manually. Ok how hard can that be right? WRONG!!! Ugh another question I have who decides how these programs work? Ok I can do this I said to myself. I went into Norton page and clicked on the download tool this whole looong page pulls up and I do mean long telling me that I need to run this removal in safe mode. ???? Yes I know what safe mode is however Im just wondering to myself why? So I switched to safe mode and I tried to re-access the Norton page I had..Yeah no can do. UGH by now its 10:30 pm and Im frustrated beyond repair. No Norton repair tool is going to help me. I now needed a safe mode. So I restarted in normal mode and went to bed saying forget it. However it took me till 1 to fall asleep wondering what this nasty little bugger was doing to my computer. What kind of damage it might be inflicting. Then Im awake at 6 am with Trojan Bris vA back on my mind. I get back on the computer and pull up Norton again and re read everything I couldnt figure out last night. What they dont tell you is you need to download the program first and save it to your desk top then restart in safe mode and run the removal tool. Oh theres alot more they told me and didnt tell me that was inaccurate but Ill save you all the details suffice to say I have a clean computer now and Trojan Bris vA is all but a bad memory. One I hope to quit seething over soon. Honestly I think these people who come up with these stupid viruses need to be drug out into the street and I dont humilated at the very least. Do they have nothing better to do then mess with peoples computers how pathetic do you have to be. The worst is their handy work preys on people like me who arent totally computer illeterate yet Im not a computer genius. So Im wondering I dont have alot to share on my computer I mean if they steal my passwords they arent going to get much. Maybe access to my facebook or my my space.....Or my blog...so in closing if they are so smart with computers Im guessing they dont need my blog they can create their own..SOOOOOOOO they really arent that smart then are they?

April 19th 1991

Wow alot happened back on April 19th 1991......Remember the dentist that had HIV he notified all his patients on that day. Senators were pushing Bush to sign on the Childrens rights treaty. Iraq gave the UN its details on its chemical a-arms. The Navy was sued over the sailors deaths on the USS Iowa. Stanley Garage doors were recalled. Some of the tops movies...Silence of the Lambs, Sleeping with the Enemy, Out for Justice. I've Been Thinking About You" by Londonbeat was a top hit in music. The average price of a dozen eggs in 91 was $1.01. The average price for a gallon of gas was about $1.40. You know what else was happening on April 19th 1991.......Kendra Michelle Sorenson was born. My oldest daughter. Yes thats right she is 18 today. 18 years ago I was laying in a hospital bed giving birth. Time has gone so fast and my little girl is a woman now. Im reflective today , Im sad but happy. I would love to go back for just a day and hold her close smell her wonderful baby scented head. Beathe in her innocence and remember every little detail about her at that moment. Hold on to and make every minute as long as possible. Of course I cant so I will make every 18 year old minute what I can today because befor I know it shell be turning 30 and she wont even be my teenager anymore.

Its my wedding isnt it?

Happy Easter to everyone. I hope everyone had a wonderful blessed Easter with the people they love the most, I know I did. Ok that said let me get to my rant...
Adam and I decided when he proposed we didnt want a huge wedding something small a few of our closest friends and family. As Ive stated in previous posts that we decided to have it here at our home. After pleadings and discusions about weather we finally moved the reception and added a dance both to be held at the Backus legion. It wasnt what I wanted but we did it and made some peace on the subject. I thought that would make some happiness on the whole thing......wrooooooooooong. My mother in law to be is insistant that she would like our wedding in a church. Its not that Im against churches quite the opposite. I just want mine how we planned it. Small and at home!!! So today all I heard was "Oh dont you want a church wedding? " NO I DONT. How many times do I have to say it. For once my mother came through for me when she asked my mom she said you know they could have gone to the justice of the peace it doesnt really matter...THANKS MOM!!! and I do mean that. My mother in law is making me feel like everything I want is wrong not good enough. To make matters worse she gave me her guest list. It goes beyond small. I dont have enough chairs for all this. Or food. Now all of a sudden baked beans have been added to my menu, I didnt want that either. After the day is done and people have gone home, Adam turns to me and says maybe we should have a church wedding. Ok so now Im crushed because once again my ideas and plans arent good enough. Am I being petty?