Another rough day

Well today I had another appointment. Yet another ultrasound. This time she seemed to think the crown to rump measurements were not big enough so I went for yet another blood test which I wont have the results for till tomorrow sometime. Small growth means that the pregnancy might not be viable. Meaning I might miscarry, so they are checking my hormone levels to see if they have increased. Yeah what a blow huh? I will know tomorrow what the results are. If the hormone levels are the same or increased then its all good. If they have decreaded then it doesnt look good I guess. I dont know. Im trying not to fret about it but what a rocky emotional 3 weeks it has been. First I find out I am pregnant which I had no intentions on becomming. So I try to wrap my mind around that. I get kinda used to the idea and start to get excited then I have all these road blocks. It wasnt this difficult with my girls. I was pregnant and that was that no tests no internal ultrsounds. I dont know whats worse not knowing or knowing theres a glitch and worrying. Its weird you know you never really think about all the things that can go wrong when you are pregnant. Anyway Im tired and beat and stressed to the max so for those of you who are firm believers in prayer please include me in on yours if you would.

6 weeks

Well I guess I am offically 6 weeks into my pregnancy......wow how time flys, NOT! I now have really sore breasts, I do not remember that with the girls. Not like this. I feel like someone is poking me with pins and needles. I still havent had any sickness Im not nauseated at all and so far the only thing that makes me feel sick is if the dog poops in the house, I just cannot clean it up I gag. I am sleeping better then I did befor about 6 hours + thats better then 4. Tomorrow I go to the dr again and hopefully get my blood test results. I got some maternity clothes ordered from JC Penneys and they came today. I tried them all on and they look like they will work. I have promised myself I am NOT gaining alot of weight. As you all know I am over weight anyway and have been working at loosing weight for the past 2 month. I have managed to take off 17 lbs and hope to loose more. The Dr said I dont have to worry about gaining because the baby will take what it needs. I am going to take that to heart!!! Im still walking 3 days a week for 45 minutes each time. I was supposed to walk today but my walking family bailed on me so I did go back to bed today. Im entitled Im pregnant.......lol

Updates!!!

Today I had my first appointment. I am officially due September 20th. Which puts me at 5 weeks and 1 day. The baby is about the size of a grain of rice right now. Crazy huh!!! It was a hectic and draining day for myself. My appointment was at 9:45 am. I chose to dr in Staples with Dr Uhlman. Today I had an internal ultrasound done. That is something new since I had my youngest. It was fairly uneventfull as the zoom on there doesnt quite zoom in enough to see the baby really. However the gestational sac was there and everything looked as it should for someone in the month of pregnancy that I am in. I had blood work done. I do mean blood work. They drew ... count them...12 vials. Thats right 12. It was supposed to be 10 however I have horrible veins. They roll they drop away they are like rubber. 2 veins collapsed and we had to find anouther impossible site for drawing. The reason for all the blood letting is because of my history of blood clots. DVT's and PE's arent good things and I am now giving myself a single injection of lovenox everyday until the bun comes out. I wont have my genetic results for awhile but we are on the track to success hopefully. I was very shakey and couldnt walk well when I was done but some orange juice and lunch had me feeling a bit better. Im still feeling drained but tomorrow is a new day. I go in one week from today to meet with my dietician and have yet anouther internal ulrasound done........Its going to be my 2nd home I think next to work......lol

insane!!!

So today started off like any other friday off. I got up and decided what to make for supper and headed to town to get the ingredients. No big deal right? WRONG!!! Befor the afternoon began I found out I was pregnant. Yeah ok let me back that up........Ok sooooooo while in town shopping. I was alone of course and I always replay my life for myself in my head go over things rationalize things that sort of thing. While going through my musings it dawned on me....when was my last monthly. Now Im sure for some of you that sounds a little strange. However you have to understand my life. I have 2 teenage daughters, a full time job and numerous health issues I worry about. So I came to the conclusion I really couldnt remember. I remembered it in Nov and I was pretty sure it was a normal period in December but I couldnt be sure. So on a whim I picked up a home pregancy test. I got home and though well go ahead what ya waiting for. I really wasnt fully expecting it to be positive however a big + sign was in my window. So after telling Adam or shocking him is more like it, I made a Dr app. Whithin an hour I had my result from them Positive. So there you have it. I am 39 and pregnant. I really cant add anything more because I have no clue when I could possibly be due and Im still kind of shell shocked. I will post more when I know more. Just praying for a healthy mom and a healthy baby!!!

updates

Ok so it has been a month since I had my diabetes test done and found out my blood sugar was high. Not super high but high enough that the Dr was concerned. So I have been following a diabetic diet. ( low carbs low sugars ) Obviously lower calories. I am happy to report that my blood sugar has been lower the past few days alot lower then when I started. I do the whole finger poking thing like 6 times a day and its much better. Also an added bonus is I officially hit a weight loss of drum roll...................................................................15 lbs. Not bad not bad at all. I say its a bonus because I didnt go into this trying to loose weight. Although the Dr did recommend that I loose weight. So yes the goal was loose weight however I wanted to go into this with the mind set to get healthy. Thats the main goal. So Im very happy and it hasnt been to terribly hard really. Yes there are times Id give my right leg for some garlic toast or a slice of pizza a huge plate of nachos.......yummmmmmmmmmm oh anyway sorry lost my train of thought. The alternative to eating healthier is having diabetes, which runs in my family. My parents my brother etc. I dont want that. I would rather not eat the pizza and nachos and all that good stuff. So Ill stick with the lean cusine meals and the cheese and eggs and olives and pickles and beef summer sausage and cream of wheat and salads.....well you get the picture!!!

Life in 2009

Ok so my life isnt all that terribly wild and crazy so lets say I just kind of slide into 2009. Adam and I went to some friends of ours Wednesday night. Kaylee my youngest daughter went to spend the night at a friends house and Kendra my oldest daughter was in the cities so we went over for good food and good friends and good company. Nobody hollared happy new year when it turned 12:00 we all just kind of said it to each other....lol. I know were so wild huh? It was fun though. New years day brought about a lazy do nothing sort of day. We did go see The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons and I totally recommend going and seeing it. I really liked it!! So now on to 2009 hmmm I debated on a new years resolution? To resolve or not resolve? Most resolutions are so cliche anyway. Im going to loose weight, stop smoking, blah blah blah.....why do we need a new year to do that? Dont get me wrong I undertsand the logic but Im just thinking our whole lives should be resolutions you know? When we mess up we vow to not make that same mistake again. Plain and simple. So no resolutions for me I guess. I decided 3 weeks ago for my health to eat better and try to fend off my thwarting future of diabetes so Im sticking with that. If you made a resolution stick to it!!! If you fall jump back ap and resolve again. You dont have to wait a whole year for that!!