Another rough day

Well today I had another appointment. Yet another ultrasound. This time she seemed to think the crown to rump measurements were not big enough so I went for yet another blood test which I wont have the results for till tomorrow sometime. Small growth means that the pregnancy might not be viable. Meaning I might miscarry, so they are checking my hormone levels to see if they have increased. Yeah what a blow huh? I will know tomorrow what the results are. If the hormone levels are the same or increased then its all good. If they have decreaded then it doesnt look good I guess. I dont know. Im trying not to fret about it but what a rocky emotional 3 weeks it has been. First I find out I am pregnant which I had no intentions on becomming. So I try to wrap my mind around that. I get kinda used to the idea and start to get excited then I have all these road blocks. It wasnt this difficult with my girls. I was pregnant and that was that no tests no internal ultrsounds. I dont know whats worse not knowing or knowing theres a glitch and worrying. Its weird you know you never really think about all the things that can go wrong when you are pregnant. Anyway Im tired and beat and stressed to the max so for those of you who are firm believers in prayer please include me in on yours if you would.