Monday, November 24, 2008

Why cant I fall apart?

Ok so I miss the days as a teenager ( or maybe just non mom days ) when I could just fall apart. You know collapse on the bed in a chair and sob. You know release all those pent up tears and frustration all the anguish. The days when someone wasnt watching and I had to be tough. I dont really miss those days I just wish I didnt always have to be so tough. Folks for those of you without kids you will never know how tough parenting is until you experience it. Honestly labor is the smallest most easy part of becomming a mom. Its heartbreaking to see your kids hurt. I would trade just about anything to change places with them and take the hurt away. Then when the day id done I go off to my room and Im alone and then I cry. Not just a small teary eyed cry but a full fledged let it loose and bawl. You hold yourself and rock yourself. No one tells you its going to be ok except yourself. Sometimes its hard to listen to yourself. I try because I can be pretty convincing........Then I pull myself together dry my tears and get ready for the next fall because with every wonderful parenting moment I know I have to be strong

1 comment:

sharoo said...

i was there as a teenager, i know the things that made us fall apart. Haven't we outgrown all the dramma?