Back to life

Today is Saturday and today I go back to work. Im apprehensive...I dont want alot of attention and hugs and appologies. I want to carry myself with some dignity. Its nice to know people care dont get me wrong but its hard to conduct yourself in a matter that doesnt involve a breakdown when theres someone asking you about it all the time. It doesnt help for me to have to give the details of what happened. It re lives it for me. Right now Im concentrating on getting through the after math. I have to say there have been a hand full of people who have really truly helped me alot!!! My dear friend Cara who I have pestered with 1,001 questions and she has patiently answered and given advise on every one of them. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! My youngest daughter whom without her I dont know what I would have done. She had given me more back rubs and foot rubs then I deserve and I am blessed to have her as my daughter. Savannah and her lovely note she sent me you will never know how much those little things mean!! Evryone who sent flowers from DQ they are beautiful. Everyone who has sent messages and condolences. You caring has meant so much to me. Dont feel bad if you didnt call honestly I couldnt talk really any way it was to tough. I found it easier to message on the computer. So now I am heading back into the world and hoping that I dont get alot of people talking to me about "what happened " I dont know what happened all I know is it happened and it hurt and its more helpful to not have to give details just yet... because honestly I dont want to cry anymore.