really on my mind

So christmas has come and gone......it went so fast didnt it?

So we celebrated Christmas eve with my parents here at home. Christmas morning we went to Adams parents. I ended up having a long talk with Adams mom which has been weighing on my mind since and I cant seem to shake it. As most of you know I have 2 teenage daughters from a previous marriage. I have been divorced for 11 years. Adam and I have been together a little over 3 years. Adam doesnt have any children he is 6 years younger then I am. He would like children he says I dont think personally hes ready for that but thats my opinion. His mother whom I adore dont get me wrong would also love granchildren. I dont know that I can do that. One I am almost 40 years old, and I have had a history of a DVT ( deep vein thrombosis ) and also two pulmonary embolisms that I got from the DVT. I dont know if a Dr would want me to have any more children. I worry I might increase my risk of blood clots by having more children. Adam also worries about this. Up to this point his mom has always said that it wasnt a big deal if we had children together or not. Until this week, she made it clear to me that grandchildren were very important to her. Where does that leave me? Feeling like I am going to fail her if I dont. She also informed me that she will neither encourage Adam to marry me or discourage him. Crazy huh? Yeah and I dont know what to think or how to get this out of my mind? It is bothering me. Maybe Im being over sensitive? I dont know........